today i woke up thinking, "damn, this again."
i rolled over a few times wrestling the id. for a moment there it seemed like i was going to stay in bed. finally, i got the upper hand and sprung out of bed straight into the arctic cold of my room. i quickly dashed towards my work clothes, phone, wallet and keys. i then headed towards the restroom, after that i blacked out because the next thing i remember is driving my car on the freeway, heater on blast, while listening to Minus the Bear's "Omni" album (which is GREAT by the way.)
getting out of bed is probably the toughest part of my day, but not today.
because today i did something i've never done before. i feel horrible yet relieved that i finally had this conversation but it had to happen. probably sooner would have been best. but it's done.
it's funny how one event triggers others and sets cosmic reactions in the different people from your past.
i have a funny feeling about 2012. not the guatemalan end-of-the-world kind, but the kind where i see many things changing and evolving.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
2011: it came from scratch
when this year began, i told myself that 2011 would be different.
looking back now, 2011 truly did come from scratch. 2010 was a year where i'd put myself in situations were i'd swore i'd never be...pretty much a double take of 2006. but alas, in the midst of making yet another ass out of myself, the shards of glass picked themselves up and i was able to see myself again.
these last several weeks i've been living and working up in burlingame, ca helping Virgin America answer angry phone calls. every morning, at 6:30am, after taking a shower, and scarfing down some frech toast, i take my brisky 15 minute walk along the bayside trail overlooking the san francisco and oakland bay. i usually take this walk alone but every now and again, several raccoons follow along.
this is probably my most favorite part of the day; it's still dark, nobody is awake and it's just myself, the racoons and my tangent thoughts. as i walk, a series of montages fill my head. so many places along with faces that have impacted me. i can't help but know that i am abundantly blessed!
i have no clue where 2012 will take me, or if i'm even going to get a chance to finish 2011. but if the Lord allows me another year, i'm sure it'll be interesting.
looking back now, 2011 truly did come from scratch. 2010 was a year where i'd put myself in situations were i'd swore i'd never be...pretty much a double take of 2006. but alas, in the midst of making yet another ass out of myself, the shards of glass picked themselves up and i was able to see myself again.
these last several weeks i've been living and working up in burlingame, ca helping Virgin America answer angry phone calls. every morning, at 6:30am, after taking a shower, and scarfing down some frech toast, i take my brisky 15 minute walk along the bayside trail overlooking the san francisco and oakland bay. i usually take this walk alone but every now and again, several raccoons follow along.
this is probably my most favorite part of the day; it's still dark, nobody is awake and it's just myself, the racoons and my tangent thoughts. as i walk, a series of montages fill my head. so many places along with faces that have impacted me. i can't help but know that i am abundantly blessed!
i have no clue where 2012 will take me, or if i'm even going to get a chance to finish 2011. but if the Lord allows me another year, i'm sure it'll be interesting.
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